Sylvester McNutt said ” Those who were supposed to protect me were the people who hurt me.”
Daddy don’t touch me there
I’m gonna tell on you one day I swear
Can’t you see I’m scared
You suppose to be my fatherEveryday I wonder why my daddy had to be the one to take away my innocence
Oh sometimes a wanna die feels like no one cares for me and it’s evident
That something must be wrong with me
I’m not as happy as I seem to be
The long showers I take don’t wash away the memories
Why do I have to face these tragediesWe go through struggles in life I’m aware
But to have my daddy touching me that’s just not fair
Stop him from destroying ma future
Believe me he’s behaving like a creatureQueen Ifrica
Above is a song sung by Queen Ifrica about innocence being taken away by Daddy.
Let’s try to understand the word innocence, Merriam-Webster simply puts it like this: freedom from legal guilt of a particular crime or offense or freedom from guilt or sin through being unacquainted with evil. Innocence is a very fragile thing once lost it’s hard to regain. It’s a loss that can leave us feeling vulnerable and exposed in a world that can be harsh and unforgiving. Most people had their innocence taken away during their childhood or teenagehood when they didn’t understand the mechanism of this world or simply how this world is evil! Research shows that 90% of sexually abused people have been abused by family members or people they know and only 10% by strangers. 60% of sexual assaults are not reported to the police and approximately 70% rape victims know their assailants. The people who we are supposed to trust or run to for security are the ones who are putting us through this mess. So, the big question is WHO THEN ARE WE SUPPOSED TO TRUST?
Innocence isn’t just about naivety; it’s about trust, vulnerability, and the belief in the inherent goodness of the world. It’s the freedom to see the world through untainted lenses, unburdened by cynicism or fear. But as we age, life throws its curveballs, shattering our illusions and leaving us grappling with the aftermath. Perhaps it was a moment of betrayal when someone we trusted broke our hearts or shattered our faith in humanity. It might have been the harsh realities of the world poverty, violence, and injustice that forced us to confront the darker side of humanity. Or maybe it was simply the passage of time, the gradual loss of innocence that comes with growing up and realizing that the world is far more complex than we once believed. For some, the loss of innocence comes suddenly, like a lightning bolt in a clear sky. For others, it’s a slow erosion, a series of small betrayals and disappointments that chip away at our innocence until there’s nothing left but jadedness. But the most heartbreaking aspect of losing our innocence is the realization that we can never truly return to that state of innocence once it’s gone. We can try to shield ourselves, to build walls around our hearts, but the scars remain, one always acts like it’s not a big deal, but they are breaking from inside, a constant reminder of what we’ve lost. So why did you have to take away my innocence? The answer, unfortunately, is as complex and varied as the human experience itself. Sometimes it’s a deliberate act of cruelty, a betrayal that leaves us reeling and questioning everything we once believed. Other times, it’s simply the inevitable consequence of living in a world that can be both beautiful and brutal in equal measure. In the end, the loss of innocence is not something to be mourned but something to be embraced. For in losing our innocence, we gain something else a deeper understanding of ourselves and the world around us, a resilience born from facing adversity, and a wisdom that can only come from experience. So while it may be painful to say goodbye to our innocence, let us remember that it is not the end of the journey but the beginning of a new chapter—one in which we carry the lessons of our past with us as we navigate the uncertain terrain of the future. And in doing so, perhaps we can find a way to reclaim some small measure of the innocence we’ve lost along the way.
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